No improvements at all!...unbelievable. wahaha kawawang bata..
I'm not in the mood to write anything right now. I'm so disturbed with many thoughts rushing in my mind and I can't even catch a single one of it.

What a world record! I couldn't believe myself. We had series of quizzes for the prelim term and all of 'em I wasn't able to pass. Am I that dull? Oh I don't know what to do. I am loosing hope and I wanted it to be over. I feel like my knowledge isn't really that tough to be able to stand in this course. But I shouldn't act like this. I wanted to change this. I know there is a light at the end of this dark tunnel. But as of now I'm really lost. Sad to say..

I keep thinking about going back to kindergarten days. Everything are just beauty and play. Easy to be exact. And I guess I can only be in that place in my dreams. But moving forward..I'm sticking to this rough road life and do something about it. I think, it's an easy thing to just say but hard to put in actions. That's me. You guessed it. I don't do physical work. I like it that my mind is working. I hate tasks. I just love to think big or small. Whatever. Nobody gives shit..but I enjoy doing it. And by doing so I find peace and serenity ( sounds familiar?hehehe) .

Oh yeah...I'll rock til I drop.

........summer time.....

I was forced by my friend to post this photo. Ergh. This is my secret world and nobody has to know about this..Sssshhh. Just you and me. hahaha
Like every love story it always has a beginning and an end. It started when they were still in their freshmen year in high school. The girl had a crush on this guy the moment she saw him. And she even knows the name even though they weren't being introduced. She knew that there is something special about him. But she took his presence for granted. Of course she has to think of her family and the people surrounding her. She needs not to rush things. The guy confessed his love to her but turned him down. She knows she's hurting him but she's hurting even more. And that's the part of the story that was never told. The guy is going to transfer to another place and study there for good. He even informed the girl that he's leaving and that he still loves her. But the girl was thinking that maybe it was just a joke so that she could end up confessing how much she loves him. 'Cause she still doesn't want to let him know for the reason that he might end up breaking her heart. But on the second thought maybe it's true and that she will never be able to see him again and will never know of her feelings for him. But it was too late to say those things to the guy.
The school year had started and news were breaking to who's new and who's gone in the campus. And then she found out that he's gone too. She wanted to reach him through his contact number but fate has it. Her sim card got lost and maybe he already changed his number. So years gone by. The girl turned down few guys 'cause she is still in love with the "guy". She was blaming herself for the torment she's been going through. The loneliness she is suffering but she finds ways to keep up. She had her friends to comfort her.
High school days were over. And farewells were hard to do and say to fellow mates. She still thinks of him from time to time. She finally had the guts to look for him. So then with the help of a friend they were able to communicate. And both of them confessed their feelings for each other and finally they realized how much they love each other. But then they can't be together physically 'cause she's leaving to college and the guy too. They are in a long distance relationship. But as the months passed the girl felt she was left behind. Alone though she was very true to her promise to him but she still feels that their relationship is going nowhere. She finally decided to get rid of him She has to go back to her home town to continue her studies there and would never feel alone with the companies of her friends. She never heard of the guy. But she still misses him so much. She cried her emotions and loneliness whenever she couldn't hold it anymore. But life must go on...

Dark forces came to changed everyone's lives and had left some people to come to realized how they could do such actions that had hurt someone's feelings...and how much he needed her back.
Another summer came. The guy went to her house and said their hellos and asked their how are yous. He wanted her back. It was too late. The girl doesn't want to go through what she'd been through before. And turned him down. But the guy was very motivated to get her hands back. So they meet and talked about the things that had happened and he told her that he will never do those things again to her. But the girl keeps holding back. But she came to realized that maybe it's worth a second try. Maybe she will never have her heart be broken again. Since the one who broke it is also the one who'll going to fix the damaged. She finally said yes again...

And maybe they really are taking things one day at a time. Maybe they are trying to work it again and avoided the things that might hurt each others feeling. Maybe they are going through the right way. And maybe in spite of the distance they have it in their mind and heart that they'll always have each other. Maybe they are afraid to let go. Maybe they found a safety way to make the relationship work again. And maybe they are learning from their mistakes. And maybe they truly found their happiness. After 6 years of ups and downs. Maybe they'll make it and maybe they couldn't. Maybe the future really is for both of them or maybe it isn't.

But surely the story is still in the making. The end is not near..

the guy and the girl...they are happy in their lost worlds. See.