Where you've been for that last few days? Been trying to connect but there is nothing to expect. Same thing goes along. I'm being left alone. Do you still remember me? Keep wondering and hoping you still. Missing things been trying to fill them up. But knowing the fact that it can't be replaced. Blew my face with so much sadness. I can't move. My mind still thinks of us. Unfairly.

nonsense. try listening to Battle by Colbie Caillat. Beautiful song. :)

They told me to get out of the graveyard that I made for myself. The line that most of my friends keep telling about the affair that I'm in. It's a long distance so it's the kind prone to temptations and lies that would eventually lead to broken heart, pain, tears, and some went to the other life.

I give full attention to their concerns for me. They are my friends. I know they won't turn their backs when the earth under my feet shakes. They are scared for me. They worry alot about me.

The reasons: I'm here in my place being a good girl while my boy is living in a far away land. For me, he's doing the good deeds just not to tear my paper heart. Keeping in touch most of the time. And telling things like what he's been up to and the worries. Typical conversations that normal couple have but the absence of each earthly bodies.

The worry: My friends think that he is not exerting effort in our relationship more than I do. Simply they think that I'm the one who's loving more in our situation. Which they think is unfair.

Me: When you love someone does it really matter of who's loving more or less? The moment that I made up my mind about falling inlove is that give my love to someone whom I think never seen the light of day. My mind was telling me to be a saviour perhaps or a challenge for myself . If I'll be able to stand up for my decision long enough. Through all the pain and sufferings. And until now it's right in me. I couldn't get rid of it. 'Cause simply I'm enjoying the game that I'm in. And I have stayed true which I already proved to myself . But why is it I'm not letting this go? When you love, is it the end of everything? Or the beginning of a new chapter? Does it mean it's over when everything seems to be going at the right way? Maybe I wanted more. I couldn't get enough that's why I'm staying.

I know that we are at our best behaviour. Though there are little misunderstandings but eventually get fixed. We are open to suggestions and we talk like best friends. Look, we are not imitating the past we are renovating for the future. And so far so good. Success is still in the process and we are having fun along with it. The unexpected greetings that comes anytime of the day it melts our souls.

Do you think I should be living a life without him? Do you think I'm not happy knowing we have each other? That's why they are asking me to leave.

I know in the end my decision shall prevail. But I'm ready to face the consequences. I have it in my mind. When all else fails, I'll cry and get sad. Who wouldn't?

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