Do What You Want!


Well, I've been sitting in front of this computer and yet it seems that my daily routine is what exactly really happens. I have the smallest online world everrrrr.

It's not that it's a big thing or something but you know, picturing others' that have so many connections to the outside of their trusted circle. I'm just wondering how did they able to cope up with it?

People now a days are just constantly communicating. Do they even have time to miss each other?

My boyfriend and me used to be like that but not in social networking sites that we should be greeting each other with our good mornings and all. That other people should notice. Or saying I love You to the public. But really, is there a need to do all the cheesy stuff out into the open?

Instead of that, aren't we supposed to just talk sense of every topic we should be posting?

Da When?

 

When I was in Cagayan de Oro for job training, I lived at my aunt's house. She was surprised that I and my cousin Andrew were there. I told her my purpose and she welcomed us in her home. She then asked why I was still here in the Philippines. She thought I was already in America. But I wasn't because I still have to accomplish some major requirements for it, including 2 years' experience in the hospital. I didn't know then that one of her daughters is a nurse in Saudi Arabia, who also got married to a doctor there who holds a higher position in the hospital she is working. Now, my aunt told her my situation that I am working in a car company nowhere near being a nurse. So then she offered me an offer of a lifetime. To work there, with her help. Voila! I am now sorting out my papers for me to work there too. (I am smiling on this part :DDD) Truly who wouldn't be marvelled about it? Being a nurse and work at the rate your supposed be paid, well that is one in a million situation.

I tried to be discreet of anything, regarding travels, papers that I'm working on. And trusts few friends to share the real score and also are helping me. I just want that when everything is ready, that the only thing left to do is to fly, that is when I truly want the facts to really sink within me. And then I can share the whole story to others.

But as of the moment, I wish to shut our mouths about it. But, now things are almost out in the open so I guess just let it be. Hopefully, God willing that I'll be able to get over the hardship, money matters, physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually, and all wally wally needed just for me to be ready with no hindrances within me when I fly and work.

 

Whew.. it's really not easy.

 

 

Dai and Dong = Belle and Pit,

Dai and Dong = Belle and Pit,

Finally a wish came true. My boyfriend and I used to call each other Dai and Dong. We avoid being too corny and cheesy when it comes to terms of endearment. On Dai and Dong, it's not too embarrassing to call around people. I know it's not too sweet, it even sounded like we're yaya and hardinero nang isang mansyon lang naman J. Well, it sounded more like humility and respect rather than sugary.

Coolness as it sense. But that's how it defines us. Weeks ago we decided to push to try different name calling because another couple whom is close to us is using the same names. And to be honest we're not in the position to change. But I'm just too pissed off by them and even my boyfriend says so. Yesterday we brainstormed about it for hours we couldn't think of any. Until we arrived to each house and started texting, he came to cross saying I'm "belbel" (because I do happen to have slightly big belly :DDD). I thought of calling him Pete/Pit. Pete stands for feet, which he loves to scratch and could also be spelled as Pit, because of armpit I do happen to love smelling that part of his bodyJ.

Yeah, I know what you're thinking too disgusting. Exactly, that's the point. Belle and Pete, really sounds like too happy and in love couple, right? :DDDD But not disgusting, it will be like this for a week lang naman. It's official; we're now Belle and Pete/Pit.

Blissful. It even makes me shed a tear. Lol :DDD

Who?

I've been with my friends for a decade already. Since high school through college days. I never really imagined that we would stick to each other like this. Somehow there are times that we all have to be separated because of migration, jobs and of course with work to other places. But you know how technologies are now a days. Things, such as communication seems just a click away. We would make an effort to say hello among each other.

Through struggles, be it financially, families, love problems, be it faith, school. It brings us closer even more. To the nonsense things to most highly appreciated expensive pleasures. We're all there. The girls are referred to be one of the boys (am proud to be one). And ironically the boys are very sensitive among the ladies, protective in many ways; respect you a hundred per cent. That's just something you rarely find among men. We share our ups and downs. Though we all make fun of each other it never really means to degrade you at some point. They call it trash/street talk. It ranges from disgusting things to topics with much sense. Damn, I consider them genius. I guess things really happen for a reason. We just needed each other. Then you can say the best things in this world are priceless indeed.

Food and drinks are the right ingredients to make a gathering worth remembering. No, we don't or rather we rarely go to bars and dance. But we stay in the corner of the streets and own it. A never ending conversation. I guess that's why there are liquors because its role is to end the night when all are just too drunk to talk. J

We all have our best buddies among us. We never get jealous, we just know a fact that there is also a level of closeness and we respect it. Most of us are single or in a serious relationship. In a relationship status meaning the partner is aware to the attitudes and characters of each one of us. It's NOT required that he/she should hang out always. If there is privacy needed, yeah you guys can have that.

And there is this guy that for a long time been the girls' "frenemy". Though a constant bother and truly an annoying person. Gals and guys find him well, a true friend. The one who will say "you're stupid." But you guys just laugh about it. Well he might have previous relationship that was serious enough to shut us out of his life but then when it ended we were there for him. He once said that to pull him out of a love spell WHEN it would suck him again to stupidity. I don't believe that there is a wrong love but there is a wrong partner and he's a constant magnet to that. And I'm proud to say he's back in his old ways.

The "it girl" is a real treasure. A Goddess …

Who with a right mind to degrade or look down the friends of her partner? When in FACT they were there even before you guys known each other.

Who didn't even make an effort to know his friends? Thinks like a star that couldn't be touch.

Who thinks "I'm too rich to be friends with your level?"

Who talks trash and bad words? Quite a character for a very well brought up girl (?).

Who is oozing with insecurity? Who prevents him from communicating with friends in high school, when she's aware of their closeness?

Who is also your employer for whatever she says you have to do it?

Man, when you're in love you never really seem to see a BITCH in a person. How much mess are you going to put it up with? Love is never like that. It's never insecure. And never fight for wrong reasons. That's just plain LAME.

Don't get too attached my new girl "frenemy", because you admit you're still a school girl. For saying that we don't do something more productive in our pathetic lives, well we've done that. We have licenses to slap you in the face that says we're allowed to just SIT PRETTY the whole day and annoy you. Why don't you just focus in your studies than be bothered with your insecurities?

Yes, we're old enough and please don't lose your respect to us because we know better that your own perspective. I'd rather be old than have your level of understanding.

Your attitude doesn't make you pretty at all. You have to check reality; your friends may be at your side all the time because of your money but not really with your personality.

You have to constantly feed them because they might get hungry, and LEAVE their once called master.

So, if I were you, better start your New Year's resolution NOW.

 

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Who are you again?

 

Scramble.Scrambled. Iskrambol.

Whatever is happening right now, is just not right. I've been feeling this pain in my chest and difficulty of breathing for hours. Stress indeed. Don't know where, how to get rid of it.

Have to stir clear with my thoughts. Deep breathing. C'mon you gotta work.

I remember when I was in highschool my papa gave me a bouquet of red roses during my class on a Valentine's day. Thank you so much for your love pa. I'm so proud that you are my papa. I love you so much and I will miss you and your kisses on my forehead.

There is this couple. I really looked up to them. I loved them like they're part of my life. And then after 5 long years they decided to end it up. Nobody really knows the real story behind. It crushed me inside. But their courage is unbelievable. To leave what they used to have behind and move on to another life, is extremely devastating. But hey, if they're not happy anym0re then be it. What comes into my mind now is this, mind your own business. Yeah, i got so attached to them thinking that someday that will be my story. Well, it shouldn't be now that's for sure. As for me, i met the person i want to be with for the rest of my life. Let all those who don't believe in forever be hunters. For me, you have to think of the basics in life. Simplicity isn't hard to achieve same with relationships. Fight if it's really worth fighting for. 'Cause it's when you appreciate each other's existence. It will blossom in silence and just let others notice it. If they say there's more to life than this.. You'll say more will come in God's time. For now, is this. <3

Hi there! I don't want to be bitter. But people please calm down when it comes to speaking up your minds. Yes, yes i kn0w that we want our ideas to be heard. But aren't we have enough of it already in just a day? What would it matter to this world? I know,that there's always an urge to jump and join the rush, but is it en0ugh or even is it important? A world of fast changing technologies..it sounds scary though. I gotta say. Aren't we suppose to keep things in private be in private,and let the public stay in the public.

Under You!

I just need to breathe. With a lot of things going on. I don't know. I can't juggle and stay focus into something ain't coming. I've long waited for it to come but it will only be in my dreams? How sad it is.

Listenin'

Last night I listened to the radio and I got a surprise. I was listening to my old favorite songs. Made me think of the younger years when I was just a teenager having all those funny feelings like infatuations, all those stuffs. <3

I'm happy that I survived that stage. I mean being a teenager was a hell. High school days were chaos. You wanted to belong to a peer or just be left behind.

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WTF!

I had the weirdest dream last night.

In my dream: I was about to sleep when suddenly a long time friend showed up. We haven't seen each other for ages. And there he was. Well I was partly happy and confused. What the hell is he doing in my crib? But I can see he was happy too that he was there.

Then suddenly we were in a different place. It was night time and raining. We're both soak and wet. (Just like you see in movies. Really sounds unrealistic.) And then we're running in the street to find a shed somewhere.

So we're alone in a cold night standing side by side. So many questions ran in my mind. I asked him what is he doing here with me? Where is his girlfriend? We just sat there. And he started talking. He said he left his gf in a hotel in the city after falling to sleep and went looking for me. I felt like my hair grew faster instantly. But there is no way I'd be happy about that. He was just a friend and I have a boyfriend too. So there must be a mistake in this story. I should be with my boyfriend. Hello?

We kissed. Whooooooah! Is this really necessary? I know I love my boyfriend. In my mind: What are we doing? This is crazy. And then finally finally it ended. Yeah it's like now we know we are not really meant for each other. Hey! Thanks for dropping by in my dream fella. haha!



Damn.


Seriously wrong.


But I'm glad I'm back in the real life.

I miss my panini. I'll see you soon.xoxo



kara

Astronaut...

Experiencing the vastness of the outer space. No worries regarding people invading your privacy. Carefreee wiiiiii haha

But a bit lonely. It's just plain simple. Just overlooking what's surrounding you. Peace.....

She's an inspiration.. They're so cute together. They even travel everywhere. How Awesome is that?

Mind in action.

": So what is it you want to say now?
k: nothing.
":Spit it.
k: I have a question.
Why is it at Buyog they don't serve fried buyog?hehe






ka_roocks

3 in the morning...

just droppin by to say i miss doing this...

xoxo to my blog =)

I hope I could still think at this moment. we'll see where this is goin'
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Yesterday morning when I woke I checked the time woooaaah wel it was 5:58 a.m.- the past few days were like waking up later than that. So I was amazed. Then went back in forcing myself to absorbed every second that I could help myself to increase my number of sleeping hours but failed again.

How much more now, right?

Why am i depriving myself to sleep? I think 'cause I got used to it. But don't be silly, of course I know it's not that good. If I could improve myself in doin' the right thing? it would destroy the equilibrium of the earth. Such a catastrophe (sigh) heheh

Well well well

Nothin much to say but thanks for checkin out this site...

I forgot there were embarrassing infos written all over but I have nothin to hide

I rarely come visit here because it's time consuming and brain freezing. I'm just a typical pen and paper kind of person. =)

So what have you been up to lately huh?

Just wish you're doin fine...

i miss you

This week is somewhat turning into hell

research exams name it they're all in this week duty too

oh, thanks for telling me those stuffs it's really nice to know what are the things that crosses your mind i really appreciate it

ay el-ow-vi-i way-ow-yu

and always will

XD

il take my zzzzzzzzzzz now




ka_roocks

Foot and Mouth Disease

Those chicks couldn't find their own cats. I don't like to brag about their business but I just can't help it. I won't bite into their wicked plans. Wish I'm dumb enough but I'm not. Get things straight ladies. You can't have what is not meant for you. Just build a bridge and get over it.

The vices that I love to hate. When you're out with friends and leaving me behind drawn in a magical world. I couldn't stop thinking of what's happening. I ought to know those stuffs. I'm part of you (that is if you still remember) . You can't take away my worries.

Yeah maybe I want my share of freedom. Without thinking that maybe you'll be worried too. I hate this. Maybe I wanted to make things fair but it isn't that way always. I have broken myself just like what you told me. But we both learned. We'll take what is now and go on with it.

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Peace
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tonight I'll fall in love all over again with you
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wish you're with me
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tears in my eyes
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just missing you so
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--karabianca--

You'll always be a part of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Boy don't you know you can't escape me
You'll always be a part of me

no i won't beg you to stay

NOtice you noticin me..

lurking in the darkest part of my nestville..there's no way to escape. In flames I'm amazed. The noise I'm hearing I can't obey. When I wanted you to see this, you're afraid. Don't know where to go.

I dream t of the sand along a long stroke of beach line. With blue water keep kissing the luscious white shore. I watched the sunrises above me companied with the white clouds and sky so blue. I waited for it to set. Sitting on the bench under the shade of a tree. Wind keeps reminding me of its presence as the scenario almost took my breath away. Why I wanted to be alone? Peace is securing my safety.

ayyt

lovefool


haha

bianca

Find myself coming back to you

-miss the happenings
-but there are things reminding me of 'em
-difficulties are always at its best
-trying to figure things out
-taking one step at a time
-I can't believe I'd be an object of analysis
-seeing through
-while some just staring at you blankly
-my own story goes blah blah blah
-I am loosing all control
-you're everything I wanted and more
-time is my best friend
-not a fan of sleep
-we're making mends
-how could you heal a broken heart
-thought I couldn't afford to have broken wings and soul too
-guess it's good to be this way
-reminding again I'm alive and kicking
-this wound ain't healing fast enough
-where is the proper management
-AN INSULT TO THE INJURY
-the hills been there ain't going nowhere
-keep missing
-wipe my tears
-touch my face
-look into my sad eyes
-what you've been up to?
-I was thinking of club hoppin'
-can i just have some funnnnn

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bianca
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